Tough weekend

Well I don't really like being the guy who talks about girl issues but I feel like its appropriate now since its been a big part of my life recently. Unfortunately Kaitlin and I broke up on Saturday night. She told me that she felt that she was depending on me more than Christ. Basically I became very frustrated with myself afterwards and it was tough to accept that fact that I couldn't do anything about it. This was the first relationship that I emotionally invested in. So it was hard for me to lose that relationship. She told me that it would be hard for her if I talked to her at all. So basically I won't be able to talk to someone who was one of my best friends for 2 months, that I normally talked to almost everyday...not fun. I don't fully agree with her decision but I'm not gonna try to change what she felt God told her. Thankfully I have 25 other awesome brothers here in Juneau that have already showed me a lot of love.

A little back story is that I prayed for God to bring a hardship into my life after Christmas break because I realized that my life was so easy and he answered! Sadly this is the roughest thing I've ever had to go through. This is a new thing to me since I've never really been involved in a relationship that was worth anything. I know that God is working though because I have been praying to him non stop for help with this pain and hurt. So I know that something good is going to come out of this but its really hard right now!! Now I understand why people become depressed after break ups...this one really hurt. I would really appreciate prayer that God would reveal himself even more to me through this rough time. He already has for this first week and its been great. Thanks again for everyone who has supported me. This has been the best summer of my life and I thank you for praying for me!!

And Kaitlin if you read this I hope you enjoy New York and Nicaragua. I'll be prayin for ya